Today’s post is an answer to a question asked in the Comments section. It is worth promoting to a full post because the issue raises an important point for developing berserkers. The original question is:
“Wen I try to go berserk my body in a way is tense and is tingling and my head has a sort of distinct pressure on the forehead. Could these be signs that I berserked? Also wen I meditate I feel that same pressure but it evens out and spreads throughout my head. Is this a sign that I deactivated my conscious mind and am in my subconscious? And finally im having trouble understanding wat is meant by fusing my subconscious subconscious content with that of my conscious. Can u tell me how this is supposed to work?”
The tingling and forehead pressure are signs of elevated wod. It is a concept not dissimilar to the idea of raising chi. It can lead to a full berserkergang, but it is not itself the sign of one.
The reason this issue is important is that you are kind of caught in a Catch-22 situation at this stage of the path. On the one hand, you need to study the path to full elevation, learn how it works, learn good and bad signs, and gain insight. In other words, you have the right instinct here, up to a point. You have to act like a scientist, observe what you are doing and what the results are, so you can keep refining your technique.
The problem is that when it comes to the gangr, the moment that you see it or know it, you have already lost it! I cannot stress this point enough. To be aware of something is to think with discriminating thought. It is to say “it is this, and not that.” Guess what? That is dualistic thinking. To be aware of a thought like that your mind must be divided into different compartments. That is not unified. That is not elevation. That is not the gangr. So if you can say to yourself “Ah, I am berserk now,” then no, you are not.
So, those things you have to learn and pay attention to? Actually paying attention to them will guarantee that you cannot elevate.
The thing is, you must learn and understand intellectually, and then you must forget all about it.
Remember this: think only of the plowing, and never of the harvest.
Concentrate on doing the rituals, the right steps, and pay no mind to whether or not you succeed.
I recommend a period of trying to elevate in different ways. Accept the fact that you will fail for a long time. In time, if you have the capacity, you will learn.
As to fusing you conscious and subconscious minds, well, this is what the unitary state is. It is like being hypnotized, dreaming, and wide awake all at the same time. Sort of.
You cannot understand it until you have experienced it.
You want a good path to achieving this unity? If you do not have extensive meditational skills, try learning to achieve dagaz moments. A dagaz moment is the split second you first perceive something. In that bare instant, your perception of it is perfect, flawless. If you can make action toward the thing you perceive and the initial perception of it one, your action will also be flawless.
I used to pick a very small target and stand far away from it with a pile of small rocks. I would pace around so that I always started in a different place, facing away from the target. Then suddenly, I would turn around and see the target. In the moment I saw, I threw the rock. If I saw then threw, I missed. If seeing and throwing were the same thing, I often hit it.
You see, the dagaz moment technique is a way of tricking your brain to be in a unitary state with regards to the target for just a moment. Do this often enough, and you may learn how to slide from one dagaz moment to the next without effort. Then, you may end up in a unified state of consciousness.
This is but one technique, of course. There are many ways to this goal.